11:12 a.m. - 2007-03-25
Living in the past
Isn't it funny how people seem to think they know what happened in your life so many years ago? What's really neat about that is, they were not even born yet. I have been going through this for a couple weeks now. People seem to think they know more about me and my past life than I do when I lived it and they were not even there. They seem to THINK they know things about my family that they do not. There were only three of us that were there and even the youngest does remember what took place while one of the adults in thie senerio was pretty well plastered or loaded, so what could that person really remember. Never in the 43 years I have known this person, have I ever said a bad things about himand I never will. I wish I had the ability to ignore the remarks right up front but I don't. I try to explain things and then they get thrown way out of porpotion. The next thing is that I get accused for saying things I did not say. Anyway, It does not seem to matter now. I have tried to be nice and even friendly only to get reamed and end up with a new A-- ----. Guess it was time for a new one anyway. I learned a very valuable lesson, not once but twice. A certain person told me that she got a hold of one of these people on Friday night and that she explain a few things and that everything was understood at this point. I guess time will tell. One thing that I did do was to send an email to a certain person. True enough, I did that. Why? Because I wanted this person to know that I was not saying bad things about her and to also be aware that I had asked another person to leave me alone but that did not happen for a while. You are probably wondering why I am writing this. Well, so am I. I guess part of the reason is to finally explain how I feel and by putting it down here I do feel a bit better. It bothers me that people have gotten hurt by someone's remarks. I hold no hard feelings toward certain people. I hope you know who you are. There is someone I would be willing to discuss this with for the LAST TIME. Some are not even involved and have chosen to stay out of it which is a good thing because they are special to me. My last request would be for people to stay out of things that do not concern you. It only causes trouble. If you want answers don't ask me anymore. I can only tell the truth and I don't think you want to hear that. By the way, what was said about my sister was so very wrong and if that is what you were told it is again, another lie. I know this for a fact!! Oh, and the picture was me, not her!! It's a sad thing to try to control things that you can't and to hurt people along the way doing it. I love you all.
Until next time, please clix me!
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